"Here comes the summer sun,
He burns my skin,
I ache again,
I'm over you. " - Texas "Summer Sun"

The first few weeks of a relationship are always euphoric for me. I walk on clouds, the world is happy clappy and all that jazz. However, the reality has to settle in someday and it usually does so by the third week.

On rolls the first month. And I'm still in bliss.

I doodle his name endlessly. Most of my waking hours (and class time) are still devoted to blushing reruns of what little time we spend together.

And I know I shouldn't be complaining but bloody hell, this has got to come to an end. Because I am a Mass Comm student and I am not acting like it at all. Where has my ambition gone? My drive is practically non-existant by now because all I seem to ever want to do nowadays is to be by his side - which is very sweet but it's making me go mad. I worked my ass off to get into Mass Comm and I MUST NOT allow myself to be distracted.

I will pull my socks up, damnit. I have to.

To a much-loved friend, I don't know what to say to make you feel better because at moments like these, words leave me. Just know that I love you very much and I would willingly shoulder your pain if I could. You're not and will never be alone. -hug.